Rewiring Habits

I acknowledge that alcohol had insinuated itself into every aspect of my days and my nights. I had wine while I cooked, vodka and lemonade while I read and taught, beer if I was out with my husband (which, more often than not, led me also to have a hugely expensive Long Island Iced Tea,… Read More Rewiring Habits

June 25, 2017June 25, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery4 Comments

On Humility…and stuff

Sobering up requires a sense of humility. I just got an ankle monitor put on yesterday, in place of 3 days in jail. Holy hell, am I glad the law allows for that. But still, an ankle monitor isn’t exactly a fashion statement, and it’s certainly not something I want my children to see as… Read More On Humility…and stuff

June 24, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery6 Comments

Forgiveness and Frozen Fruit

It can be difficult, once we are sober, to find our own voices again. We can become so awash in shame and so mired in regret that we allow ourselves to take blame for things that simply cannot be left at our feet alone. We lose our voices because we are sure that the whole… Read More Forgiveness and Frozen Fruit

June 22, 2017June 25, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery2 Comments

Gratitude on a Good Day

Gratitude is awesome. It can reset your entire being like nothing else. You don’t need a partner, or a bottle, or anything, really. I’m an humanist/atheist/freethinker, so I am grateful without a god, too. But you can be grateful with god. I don’t mind. Just no bottles, ok? Unless it’s bottles of water. Or OJ.… Read More Gratitude on a Good Day

June 20, 2017June 25, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery14 Comments

91 Days! and a Resource List

Today was 91 days. I’m being extra vigilant right now because last time I hit 90 days, at about day 94 I began drinking again. So I’m taking extra care to pay attention to everything–my thoughts, my energy, my overall health, what I do with my time, etc. I’m trying to keep the days busy… Read More 91 Days! and a Resource List

June 18, 2017June 18, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery7 Comments

When We Stop Digging

I have a confession to make. It’s not an easy one. I hit bottom. I hit it hard. Not today, thank goodness. Nor yesterday or any time since my last post. I hit bottom on March 14 of this year. 3 months ago. I had been sober for 90-something days, and suddenly, out of nowhere,… Read More When We Stop Digging

June 15, 2017June 15, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery23 Comments

Then and Now

I remember those first days. I remember shivering, sweating, both boiling hot and freezing cold. I remember sleeping drenched in sweat, having to wash the sheets daily because I soaked them. I remember horribly broken sleep–sleep I tried to encourage by drinking, sleep I woke from craving another drink at 3 in the morning, 4… Read More Then and Now

June 13, 2017June 13, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery10 Comments

Postcards from Recovery

One homeschool mom sobers up