Changing Seasons

Thank you to everyone who has left me notes and emails asking if I’m ok. I’m hanging in there. Some days right now are just very, very hard. Not hard in the, “I want a vodka and lemonade, NOW,” sense…but emotionally draining. I feel defeated and broken because of the harm caused by my addiction.… Read More Changing Seasons

August 18, 2017August 18, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery3 Comments

Pain

I am having a hard time right now. Just this minute, just this hour. My 13yo son is very, very angry at me. He’s also angry at his dad, but mostly at me. Thirteen is already such a transitioning, trying time. Throw in a mom in recovery… and it’s hard. I can’t make him not… Read More Pain

August 7, 2017August 18, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery13 Comments

Day 136

I’m still here! 🙂 Life has been crazy busy. I’m still sober. Day 136 and I’m feeling pretty sorted for today. No strong drinking urges, no stupid little demon telling me it will be okay to try just one. I’m kind of confident in my sobriety right now, which can certainly be a dangerous thing… Read More Day 136

August 1, 2017August 2, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery9 Comments

Many Paths

There was a good discussion today in AAA (atheist/agnostic AA) about whether we blaze our own trail in recovery, or follow a leader and stay on the path. It was interesting because there were good answers on both sides. Obviously, since it was an AA meeting, we all use some form of AA to stay… Read More Many Paths

July 26, 2017July 26, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery5 Comments

I Panicked as I Wrote This (but I wrote it anyway)

My last post was basically one big cry for CBT to come help me. What is CBT and how does it work? Cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) is a form of psychotherapy that focuses on how your thoughts, beliefs and attitudes affect your feelings and behavior. … CBT can help you make sense of overwhelming problems… Read More I Panicked as I Wrote This (but I wrote it anyway)

July 22, 2017July 31, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery15 Comments

I Forgot to Pick a Title

When I was in the Intensive Outpatient Program, I took a lot of notes. There are lists of medications, of vitamins, of ways to get healthier; there are names of blogs and titles of books and apps to try; and of course there are oodles and oodles of doodles. In amongst… Read More I Forgot to Pick a Title

July 20, 2017July 21, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery4 Comments

What Matters

This experience of emergency–our family crisis– has simmered my outlook on life down to the essentials: I am thinking these days only of things that are of true import. I feel like I’m looking at the world through a porthole, and I can only see what is important. There is a small, a very small,… Read More What Matters

July 16, 2017July 16, 2017 postcardsfromrecovery6 Comments

Postcards from Recovery

One homeschool mom sobers up