I began this blog what feels like a lifetime ago. I found hope and strength and intelligent discussion in the blogs of other people who are walking the tricky path of sobriety. And I felt truly compelled to share my story as it unfolded because we never know which part of… Read More Back on top
…and some days, it’s still as tough as day three. I’m happy to report progress in all of the aspects of recovery that we’ve walked together. I’ve seen the warning signs, I’ve read the books, I’ve gone to the meetings, I’ve done the work. And, arriving at a time where I just wanted to live… Read More Moving Toward 500…
When I first started blogging about this recovery experience, I only wanted to read about folks who were newly minted in their sobriety. Somehow, years of recovery seemed unreachable and unreal. I couldn’t foresee hitting ONE month, much less ten or twelve or more! And yet, here I am at one day past ten months. … Read More 10 months!
I have tons to say: the blog posts in my mind are piling up. But for now I’ll leave you all with this text I sent my grown daughters today: Motherhood: Me: stop sewing to go to restroom upstairs Restroom is occupied Think of chocolate in fridge, stop for a piece. Little… Read More Just a Quickie
Hello, everyone! Life has been keeping me super busy–and my computer has joined the ranks of the undead: it is at “grab a good novel and wait for page to load” stage. I’m sure you all know what that is like. And honestly, I’m too damn old to find typing anything of substance on a… Read More Day 270
How in the world did 7 months go by so fast? Seven months since those pacing, fretting, panicking, sweaty days of not being able to stop. Seven months since 10 days of relapse led me to that DUI, which led me to classes and people who taught me what I needed to learn about myself.… Read More 7 months!
Hey, everyone. Thanks for all the kind words and inquiries about how things are going. I’ve been super busy and…well, just busy. I will hit 6 months in just a few days. I feel great, aside from some incipient migraines that don’t ever seem to really go away these days. I’m loving life right now,… Read More Putting it all together
Thank you to everyone who has left me notes and emails asking if I’m ok. I’m hanging in there. Some days right now are just very, very hard. Not hard in the, “I want a vodka and lemonade, NOW,” sense…but emotionally draining. I feel defeated and broken because of the harm caused by my addiction.… Read More Changing Seasons
I am having a hard time right now. Just this minute, just this hour. My 13yo son is very, very angry at me. He’s also angry at his dad, but mostly at me. Thirteen is already such a transitioning, trying time. Throw in a mom in recovery… and it’s hard. I can’t make him not… Read More Pain
I’m still here! 🙂 Life has been crazy busy. I’m still sober. Day 136 and I’m feeling pretty sorted for today. No strong drinking urges, no stupid little demon telling me it will be okay to try just one. I’m kind of confident in my sobriety right now, which can certainly be a dangerous thing… Read More Day 136