Hello, everyone! Life has been keeping me super busy–and my computer has joined the ranks of the undead: it is at “grab a good novel and wait for page to load” stage. I’m sure you all know what that is like. And honestly, I’m too damn old to find typing anything of substance on a… Read More Day 270
How in the world did 7 months go by so fast? Seven months since those pacing, fretting, panicking, sweaty days of not being able to stop. Seven months since 10 days of relapse led me to that DUI, which led me to classes and people who taught me what I needed to learn about myself.… Read More 7 months!
Hey, everyone. Thanks for all the kind words and inquiries about how things are going. I’ve been super busy and…well, just busy. I will hit 6 months in just a few days. I feel great, aside from some incipient migraines that don’t ever seem to really go away these days. I’m loving life right now,… Read More Putting it all together
Thank you to everyone who has left me notes and emails asking if I’m ok. I’m hanging in there. Some days right now are just very, very hard. Not hard in the, “I want a vodka and lemonade, NOW,” sense…but emotionally draining. I feel defeated and broken because of the harm caused by my addiction.… Read More Changing Seasons
I am having a hard time right now. Just this minute, just this hour. My 13yo son is very, very angry at me. He’s also angry at his dad, but mostly at me. Thirteen is already such a transitioning, trying time. Throw in a mom in recovery… and it’s hard. I can’t make him not… Read More Pain
I’m still here! 🙂 Life has been crazy busy. I’m still sober. Day 136 and I’m feeling pretty sorted for today. No strong drinking urges, no stupid little demon telling me it will be okay to try just one. I’m kind of confident in my sobriety right now, which can certainly be a dangerous thing… Read More Day 136
There was a good discussion today in AAA (atheist/agnostic AA) about whether we blaze our own trail in recovery, or follow a leader and stay on the path. It was interesting because there were good answers on both sides. Obviously, since it was an AA meeting, we all use some form of AA to stay… Read More Many Paths