I just finished printing out some preschool crafts and fun pages for Little One. While doing that I came across a page that had on it the words: Goals for my mind, body and soul.
What a brilliant, simple idea. Most of us set goals. Most of the time they’re just temporal necessities: Pick up milk, go to the eye doctor, get to bed by 3 in the morning. (Okay, that last one might just be me.)
But setting goals that nurture your mind, body, and soul…that sounds *important.* It made for an interesting evening for me. I printed the sheet out, and filled mine in. I think I’m going to make another one with goals for my relationship with my husband, goals for my housework, and goals for my kids’ educations. But for right now, the 3 listed are setting me off on some wonderful tangents of thought and possibilities. And it all ties in with recovery so well.
I spent some time meditating with the Insight Timer app on my phone, to the speeches of a man called Sadhguru, while I was working on some “grown up” coloring pages. (I know…what a silly but fun thing to do. It’s actually very centering for me.)
For me, coloring and meditating are helping me fulfill a goal for my soul and my mind. It helps my body, too, by constantly reinforcing a stress-free habit. I can remember how I felt during meditation when I’m having a panic attack…sometimes. That’s still a work in progress.
I still have no idea what a soul is, because I have no religion and no belief in god, so I just sort of file that under, “What’s inside me that’s important.” Works for me.
Anyway, I set three goals in each category. The body part includes food and dietary changes along with meditation and excercise…and sleep. The soul part includes time in nature, art, (last night I made window stars and did a huge watercolor before bed), meditation, and journaling. And of course my mind needs books, blogs, and allll kinds of other stuff. And my 11 year old daughter has her own page, which she’s filling out for herself, as well.
AAA was good tonight. The discussion was about the inevitability of death from alcoholism-related complaints if we, as alcoholics, continue to drink. It was a very somber discussion, as you can imagine. One member said that AA is really a way of finding something else to die of, instead of booze. That was pretty heavy stuff. (Remember, this is the atheist/agnostic meeting…death and stuff are usually pretty factually approached.)
As far as cravings and recovery go, I’m at a 9 out of 10 on the “doing good” scale. The negative point is that stupid random thought that still floats through my head when I’m driving in to town. Out of absolutely nowhere it just winds up in my brain: I could buy a bottle and nobody would know ’cause the kids aren’t with me.” Now, remember, I don’t *want* a bottle. I don’t even have a craving for a drink like I did 10 days ago. It’s just a stupid habitual thought that was in my head for so long that it’s not dying an easy death. I’m working on it, though. Certainly it’s nothing I’m going to act on.
I listened to a podcast on SinceRightNow that featured Noah Levine. He’s the author of Refuge Recovery and put together the Refuge Recovery group system. It was a good podcast, but someone was chewing gum through the whole thing. I think it was Noah. Just a little off-putting. Anyway, I am now trying to decide if Refuge Recovery or Smart Recovery are more my line…I do think our town needs something aside from AA, so I want to pick one and get going. They’re both great programs.
ack! I was trying to modify this post to add my silly, simple art and I accidentally updated to an OLD post that wasn’t finished. Urgh.
So, I think I mentioned last time that I’m doing well and…well, shit. I can’t believe I did that. I probably accidentally deleted the Most Important Words on the Internet!
Have a great Sunday everyone, and keep kicking addictions’ ass!